Sunday, July 31, 2005
The Winds that Blow Me Away
I am very much inspired these days...Ask me why? Three things:
I got the highest score in History, along with my other classmate/friend (you know who you are). It's been rewarding to know that your hard work and patience are sufficiently paid. I especially thank my God for doing this to me. I know He never gives me things that I do not deserve. Heck, I just can not believe that I have done this! Imagine, getting a hundred percent in History? What better thing would win over this kind of happening? During highschool, I really never excelled in History classes. In fact, my grades are just in the middle. But now? Oh my, a hundred percent? God, I really just can not simply thank you for allowing me to experience this. Thank you for continually doing this to me. You have blest me and protected me, continuously providing me the right things that I may be good and pleasant in Your eyes. I love you God! Forever!
Second, what is my second reason by the way? Well, my dogs inspire me a lot. They take all my problems and stress all away! I really can't live without them. That's why I love them! Sassy, Chelsea and Matt, very cute doggies.
I have friends now! Confused? Well, remember that before, I really feel isolated and alone? Well, now, I have realized that the problem is mwah. It's just that I make myself think that way so I felt that way at first. Now that I have changed my outlook in life, I can no longer say that I am alone. A special thanks to all my friends. Well, to be more specific, I thank my bestfriend, Tricia. I really love this girl. Well, she knows that. Even if we often have misunderstandings, I would never give up our friendship and bond. It's just that she completes me, and I hope I complete her. Wee! I also that the Fetus Club. They keep me company through the whole week. The stress that I feel because of too much studying is always forgotten everytime I hear their corny jokes and see their happy faces. You inspire me guys. You make me go on. You make me feel that life is fun and there is no need to focus my attention to one specific aspect. You make me look at life at a wider view and that makes me a stronger person.
Well, that's it. Three things that inspires me these days.
Now, I return to my busy mode...STUDY!
Bye and I hope to write sooner. :)
Posted by halee at 1:12 AM
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Friday, July 22, 2005
The Unpredictable Me
Ok. So who is Halee really? Well, I am totally abnormal. Before you would think of anything else, abnormal in the sense that I tend to behave differently depending on my mood. I know that it is not that good to be a moody person, but what can I do right? But i guess it is not suppose to be because it greatly affects everything, and I mean everything in my life. Oh, what a life! Sometimes I tend to think that life is so unfair. That life is beautiful to those person to whom it loves and sorrowful to those it does not love. Maybe life does not really love me after all, if that's the case. But I have thought about it, and I have come to conclusion that every person is living imperfectly. Imperfect in the sense that not everyday, they experience exceeding happiness and success. It is just that I limit the feeling to myself that I tend lose grip of the opportunities life has to offer me. God does not like that to happen. Thanks to Him, I have restored my inner happiness.
You know sometimes, I feel alone. You know that feeling that you are with a group of friends. Everything is going so well, until some time, you feel disconnected with them. That is what I normally feel around my friends. I feel that their hearts are really not in tune with mine. It's just that I feel I don't belong. I also feel that they do not even want me there with them. Like I was an extra or something like that. I really do not know the reason why I feel these things. Is I who is the problem? Or is it them? I really need someone to share this problem and I hope someone could help me cope with it.
One thing that is making me happy today in spite of every mistake in my life is my being chosen as Mary in our choir cantata. At least that is one thing that I can be really proud of. I'm happy because it has been my dream of being a cast in a musical drama.
Thank you.Halee.
Posted by halee at 10:21 PM
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