Friday, August 11, 2006
The Real Me
You all know the feeling of confusion and bewilderment? I cannot say that these thoughts I am about to say would give you these. But I believe a large percentage of people would feel this way towards this entry.
I am a good friend. I know that. I see to it that I would do anything my friends say. Sometimes to the point of sacrificing my comfort and pride. It is natural for me to do that. I feel happy about it. But now, I guess my own self has finally given up. It is like every problem shared to me by my close friends, all of those talks and advices I have given them, are all coming back to me. I never knew this would be the effect on my mental health. It is not that I am going crazy, hell no! It is just that I now carry all these negative vibes and now my heart is about to break. I can not help but cry, shout and feel bad about my own life while I help fix the lives of some problematic people. It is hard. I never thought that it would be this hard.
Look at all these pictures. You think I actually am happy just by looking at these portraits? I think my friends see me that way, a happy child. But now, I reveal to you what emotions I have. These are fear, confusion, sorrow and pain.
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